Penny for My Thoughts?

Well, It seems I'm alone on Blogger.com. no one to give me opinions and what not. i found this sight thinking it would be a community which bloggers would share interests and other things.. Seeing how blogging is the new craze. i might have stumbled on the wrong site then, maybe theres a better site one with people of the breathing type..lol i don't know if there is a certain way to blog neither lol i just write what my thoughts are... Any ways its been an eventful year so far.. this 2010 that all were raging about changes and such. I've realized what i plan to work on for my future endeavors, my writing for one, my music is another. Slowly i see my original plans for "culinary school" have been fading away to the depths. I thought it was my passion but i see myself less and less interested. I no longer find happiness and peace in baking but it now seems to be a chore. I find enlightenment when i write my poetry my stories anything really. Sharing my thoughts is relaxing i guess you could say. I don't know if\f anyone else feels the same but i know this is the feelings i get lol. Well my posting is short and simple this time.. On to find a higher network of bloggers on a different site. If there is anyone out there who's reading my blogs...Wish me luck =/

Fed Up

well its 5:40am, im awake, alone, and depressed.im done wondering and done trying. every guy whos approached me is a pig and every date, outing, or meeting goes the same. if i had a knife id chop off my tits n throw them away. listen im not a whore i dont f*** everything that moves I dont wanna suck your cock because you took me out. doesnt work that way sweet cheeks...so stop trying its pissing me off. i dont want anything anymore all you skinny b****es can have the cute sweet guys that you dont deserve because your attitudes and egos are bigger then the cost of all of Jone Rivers plastic surgeries. i dont want to go on another date that involves me wasting my time because you think im gonna screw you in the theater. no matter what i do im still not only disrespected but disgusted by the cheap, perverse minds of the past 2 and present generations. Then everyone asks why i smoke cigarettes and why i get so bitchy... pfft to deal with this bullshit. so everyone can suk me up n f*** off cuz im done with being civil and humane. Im not sitting here saying i want to fall in love right away and  get married n have babies i just want a f***in guy whos cute n sweet who want to hang out play pool, chill play video games, football, paintball maybe some bball ya kno just be my friend and my lover. but no.. you guys wanna slut. sry ur barkin up the wrong tree. go to 79th st theres plenty after 11pm